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My darkest Truth

I could only describe it as a chasm that kept growing,

A monster that never got fed,

A hollow hole that had no end,

 

I couldn’t shake it,

The fear that crippled me,

The constant taunting of my own soul

 

 

I cried for it to stop,

But the feeling grew stronger,

My deepest fear stood before me

Without blinking,

It started at me,

As if it knew me

 

I tried to look away,

But I couldn’t

It looked too familiar,

Like a distant person I once knew

 

Could this be an attempt to save my soul?

 

Without hesitation I ran to it,

Ran to the fear that stood before me,

I wanted to embrace it,

Desired to know it,

Perhaps then,

The feeling would subside

 

I held out my hand to touch it,

But then retreated.

 

I was in the middle of my stride when I woke up.

 

You see, even in my dreams,

I was too afraid to face the truth.

 

Aisha-Nicole 2016

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#45: The Great Truth

The great truth

We worship the dead as if they hear us,

We smile and say empty words at a gathering,

Bodies, all paying respect to an individual they had no care for,

Tearing up,

Only to dance a minute later,

Condolences that mimic that of great monologues,

Black dresses congregated around an already empty tomb,

Voices all raised in unity to praise an individual they had no use for,

And in the midst of that,

We all shiver,

For even the fastest,

Cannot out run the grave.

©Aisha-Nicole 2013

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#11: Nothing But The Truth (sometimes)

The Truth Shall Set You Free.

I’m sure we’re all familiar with that phase or some slight variation of the other.  From a young age I’ve heard this and tried to live my life accordingly. The truth is sometimes “nothing but the truth” isn’t that easy. I’m sure I’m probably the only heathen who has a hard time saying the truth in compromising situations. However, I’m simply stating a human flaw that I have. No, I am not a pathological liar (and No, i am not in denial either). My problem is I have a bad case of NICE. If you haven’t heard of the disease let me save you some time surfing google and tell you.

 NICE refers to an individual who takes into consideration the feelings of others WAY too much and as a result, resolves to lying in order to save the other individuals face. Or maybe it just means they’re a coward but I like the medical term better.

Recently my case of NICE got really bad and in affairs of the heart it rarely has a good outcome.

Normally when I guy is interested in me I try to take all 100+ routes in hinting I don’t feel the same until I have to be blunt. I hate being blunt. Makes me feel awkward and the suitor.

I’m saying all this because my intentions are honest but in the end I feel that I do disservice to myself and the other individual. I really did like him but all I want to be is friends and he hated that Idea. Truly hated it.

I think I’m going to invent a heat detector that increases in intensity if the butterflies are mutual. This way we can walk away no feelings hurt. But who am I kidding. We’d probably still try to explain why our heat lamp didn’t go off. I’d probably lie and say I’m out of batteries. Ugh. Life.

Thanx for reading. I’m sure you wanted to know all this information lol.

Cheers Girls and Boys

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